Moving Out

Last week I started really feeling like I didn't belong at home anymore. I felt out of place and disconnected. It was not because do not love my family and want to spend time with them, I just didn't feel like that is where I needed to be.

I casually looked at some ads on KSL for apartments even though I was pretty doubtful I would find any good ones especially one in a complex I really wanted to move into. To my amazement, I found a girl selling her contract to the complex I was hoping to move into. She had never moved in because the day she was supposed to move in she got a job in Saratoga Springs and decided to live in Lehi instead. I called her up and it just so happens that I was hanging out with my friend who lived in her complex so I was able to go and look at the apartment. It felt so right. 

I went to the office to fill out an application and she said I can sign the contract as soon as I pay the deposit and first and last months rent with the total coming to $622. I honestly did not have the money but I knew with a calm assurance that it would be okay and somehow I would have the money. I told her I should be able to pay it on Tuesday (which would be the earliest I could move in if I paid the money), not knowing how I would come up with the money. Looking at my finances over and over again it looked like I wouldn't be able to. Just in the last couple weeks I have had to put $1,500 into my car in order for it to be safe to drive. I also have to pay more money to UVU because I dropped two of my classes that were paid in part by grant money. 

The next day my mom and I had a yard sale. We had a prayer together that we would be able to make the money necessary for me to move out. Miracle of Miracles we did! In big part because my mom was also very gracious and gave me her portion of the yard sale money. I am truly grateful that she is so giving. I know that it was a blessing to have been able to sell so much I also was able to sell my bed and bed frame which was a nice chunk of money. 

So...I am moving out!! I can move into the apartment on Tuesday.  I am so excited for this new chapter in my life but I am still a bit nervous being thrown into a single atmosphere again.  I know without a doubt that this is where the Lord wants me to be and because of that he will help me and bless me through anything I go through. 

So here is to a new beginning! 

Fall Lament

I logged onto Facebook and Instagram to realize that is is officially the first day of Autumn.  Friends posted beautiful pictures of the mountains back in Utah changing colors.  Some pictures depicted fall clothing, bundled up in beautiful sweaters with leggings and boots.  Others talked about picking apples at an orchard.  Another posted pictures of a pumpkin patch.  It made me miss fall.  Badly.

Now don't get me wrong, I adore Florida.  I really do.  I love the humidity breathing on my neck, the sun shining on my face, and knowing that there is a beach not so far away.  I love it.  I love the fact that I won't have to scrap my car of ice during the winter, or slip and slide while the roads are icy.  Florida is also beautiful with its palm trees and greenery.  It is gorgeous here.  But I am a fall girl.  Fall is my favorite of seasons, and I find myself wishing the air would be crisp and that the leaves would turn colors.  Then it can go straight on back to being beautiful fall weather.  Oh, I miss the fall.  I really, really do.

I find myself looking at the calendar, and immediately going to my closet to pick my best chunky cardigan, layered among cute tees and tanks.  I grab my tights and find myself reaching for my scarf and boots, only to remember that I do not have fall weather.

I miss corn mazes, and crisp nights wrapped up with hot chocolate and a blanket.  I miss driving up the mountains and seeing the beautiful array of colors.  I miss bundling up and finding new ways to layer clothing.  I miss everything about Fall.  My heart is yearning for it.


Florida, I love you very much, but can you please, just maybe consider fall for a short while? Pretty please?

I survived today.

This is my before and after shot of the day.  Lovely, eh?

Today was a great day.  No complaints.  But I just want to relax.

Things on my mind:

1) I want to go brew some sleepy time tea with some popcorn, while curled up with a good book.

2) I'm feeling crafty...and lazy.  Somehow, I think the laziness will unfortunately win for now.  But I do want to craft soon.

3) My work rocks.  I'm in love.

4) My husband rocks. I'm in love.

5) The beach.  I miss you.  You are so close, yet feel so far.  Let's play soon?

P. S.  I love how Caitlin writes these thought provoking posts, and here I am...rambling about nothing in particular.  I'm lame like that.

Self-Esteem

Self Esteem is something that everyone struggles with. I know I do.  I have struggled with knowing who I am and who I want to become. With school starting and with the changes that these last couple of months has brought in my life, I have reflected on my self worth.

Am I good enough? 

I keep learning the answers to questions like this over and over again. 

It is a part of all of us to ask questions such as this and Satan wants us to believe that we are not good enough and that we will never be. 

Such lies. 

Although the opposite is true to. He can lead us to believe that we are too good and that we are above everyone else. 

Pride. 

Which is just as bad.

So how can we find true self esteem? 

I have found that by relying on the Lord, praying, studying the scriptures and by striving to keep the commandments I have found out who I really am.

I am a Daughter of God. 

He loves me. 

He hears me and cares for me. 

He has a plan for me. 

I know that my Heavenly Father will help me individually with whatever I am in need of. No matter how big or small he always answers my prayers. Here is a video that I watched today that explains the worth of an individual beautifully. 

So cheer up and know that someone knows who you really are and it is so much greater than you can ever imagine.

To learn more about how I have come to know about who I am visit: Mormon.org